Just a thought...

For most people, what I will be posting here would make no sense at all so just skip this part and move on...

I saw a picture of mine a while ago (gateway anyone!?)... frankly I miss it, ever wonder why my smile looked so confused? It was because I was, well for the most part depressed but a bit more so than usual... then an invitation to take a picture was given... wow! I didn't know what face to put on hence the weird smile... Hahaha! I really, miss that... I miss a lot of things, things that really don't mean much to most people but have an entirely priceless worth to me(December 17, 2006, a receipt from previously Ice Monster store, and a whole bunch of other stuff including gift wrapper).

Call me stupid, it is after all my fault and after all that I see now, all I am is full of regret.
I used to say forget regret but I guess sometimes actions and mistakes you made, affect you so much you have to live with the regret for the rest of your life. Each night I sleep, I wake up to nightmarish versions of answers that I am terrified of... I am so messed up...

~I made a promise to myself last night and I know I don't keep promises I make to myself very much but this one I intend to keep~
~a promise to be the last no matter what~
~I'll have to live that~

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