I was thinking of what other orgs to join and ... figured I might as well join what she[you] suggested. Anyway I asked to be accompanied but turns out that people were busy so I hust went and registered. A guy there asked who got me to join and i mentioned the name. Suddenly one of the people there, asked who the person I was reffering to is. And from behind me, a guy suddenly replies "yung maganda" and then they start talking as if I wasn't there... the guy had so many ummm good comments about her[just so you know, he was talking about you] and then my mind started thinking and I said to myself don't go there but I did. Anyway, at the end of it, when I was done with registering the guy gives one last comment and it got stuck in my head...... he said "tell her she's hot"...... and I didn't know what to reply so I just smiled, took my stuff and proceeded to walk.
Now what does this have to do with me being crazed? Well this event has had me thinking again for quite a while. I know I think a lot and sometimes it borders on paranoia but I can't help it so just bear with me. As you very well know I speak little spanish and can understand as well. So here's the deal, the event above has left me wondering so much about certain topics. Does the guy "like" you? Do you "like" him? Is that the reason why you look blooming? Why does this affect me so much? Does the fact that I love you come into play? Was I the one you were talking about or was it him? I am soooooo confused and it's driving me insane. Sorry if it sounds so shallow but as I have said before, I am insecure, I know I am not a whole lot of things. Anyway I know it's not suppossed to be any of my business or is it? I'm getting the feel from you that it's not suppossed to be. But it affects me just as well, you want to know why? because love makes you want to think in the positive way even when a whole lot seems negative. Now do I sound crazed? maybe...
I'll be having my interview later... and who knows what new things I might hear, not that I'm looking forward to it. It's just I notice small things and try to put things together, it's in my nature to be ummm observant.
In other news... I failed my first MA19 LT for the second time... GG ka Lutz!!! This happened after the events above and well just made my day ummm (in a sarcastic tone) GREAT!. Now I'm just waiting for the practice game with the ©boys to at least lessen my stress. Even if it's just by a tiny fraction. (if events allow me to talk to you though I'd give all this up, just so you'd know.... but I guess thats a long shot isn't it?)
Sigh* now I'm depressed hope this doesn't stay too long you might say I'm a loner again... haha! maybe I am... hmm perhaps there is truth to my guidance test result after all... then again maybe I am just jealous eventhough I shouldn't be... see how absolutely insane I am? hahaha i should stop now, this has gone on too long and I am reaching the point of snapping! Ciao! and tc to all of you! MWAH!
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