On trying, flying and falling

To TRY is to do all that you can to actualize what you said you would
I might be a jerk now for saying this
But it hurts even when it's not suppossed to
These days, people say to try is a pleasant way of saying you can't
Why can't people just say that, It's better than saying you just won't
And it saves the risk of making people think you're actually trying
[I really just wanted to talk, because I miss you]
I tried to fly really I did
But life just kept on finding a way to swat me down
And I fell so hard it hurt
And I waited to be picked up but no one was there
[These days you're just too busy]
Guess I shouldn't wait
But sometimes it would be nice waiting
knowing someone will come
[My heart wants to believe that, it hopes]

What I am.... is messed up

I might be "scary"

I might be stupid

I might be an asshole

I might be crazy

I might be insensitive

I might be all things derogatory

but

I also might be more

more than scary

just misunderstood

more than stupid

just in love

more than crazy

just to forget

more than insensitive

just scared

I might have reasons

I might have none

but you won't understand me

unless you try to

I can be more

For some reason I don't want to

Why is a reason, I can't tell
[The "I" never really mattered till the "Us" came into perspective]
but suffice to say
[The "I" was happy it finally had something till the "Us" showed it never really was]
that life is lived in more than one way
[and the "I" understood it as a "ME" and "YOU" not "US"]
and sometimes the importance
[And I am so messed up now because of it]
of a few unnoticed things
[please give me time, because i have none left]
are actually those that matter
[prove me wrong, please, just prove me wrong]