I wish

I went to ADMU today to get a certificate of good moral conduct. It took less time than I expected specially because I spent 2 days just completing the form for my transcript. I had the urge to go see [you] so I dropped by your first class not that it would matter cause you didn't notice anyway but it meant more to me. Sat around at som, thinking if I should wait till [your] class ends but decided against it, might be just bothering you. Anyway, after that I headed on to taft to fix my papers. On the way there I plugged my earphones and started thinking about stiff...while on the train some girl started staring at me... figures she was staring coz i was crying... hahaha! What a delayed reaction, I got my results and figured my predicament weeks probably months ago... and then I was crying, and on a train too! I wiped my tears and smiled and laughed at what I was doing, crying in public... not something I would usually do and as the train stopped for vito cruz station I walked out and headed to lasalle main and csb. I got the requirements and hurried back to katipunan where I am now typing this... I need to go back to taft before friday to fix the rest of my papers... But before that I need to release some things clogging my system... It's not that I am saddened that I have to leave. It is that I am saddened because I barely "see" [you] when I was there and now that I'm not I'm scared I won't at all... and tears well up when I start to think of that, then I wish, I wish that I was still with [you] the way my last days there were spent with [you]... not that anything here will ever matter, no one reads this stuff and I'm betting no one cares what's written here, I guess I just want to express myself more and well at least here there's less of a chance people will know... kind of stupid since this is the net and people could easily read this stuff but I think there's less of a chance that happens than someone blabbing when I tell them about all these things... It's weird, this entire thing started because I wanted somewhere to tell [you] what I felt, I was wrong... Anyway this has gone too long and I am tired too so I think I'll stop now and update some other time, maybe when something good happens to me for a change... haha! like that will ever happen, Ciao!