Stupid move

Yesterday I was supossed to talk to someone but I went home early coz I had to. Actually that day I didn't go to any of my classes. I was supposed to go to one but it was a free cut for that subject... hahaha! waste of time! .... not actually I had lunch with her and that made the day worth while still I wonder if she knows how I feel already.... I mean I did say it was me who gave her flowers but thats just it they're just flowers nothing more well I want them to be more... Shit shouldn't have gone home early even though my parents warned me not to stay out late again like the other night. I really had to go home early, still it felt like shit! I did not want to go home because I had something to tell her and I've been psyching myself up for it for about a week already.... only for it to be postponed to.... well today..... Shouldn't have stayed up the other night. This would have been done by now.... Now I feel like my head's about to explode and I'm getting the feeling I shouldn't push through.... Still I have to, I want to, that way she knows, and I'm honest about how I feel. Damn! I'm depressing myself again..... oh well I'm gonna see her later anyway, actually that's the only thing I'm going to do today.... hope she understands what I'm going to say.... Ciao!