It probably is me.....

I've been making a fuss lately over her[your] not texting me or replying and it hurt so much. I kept on thinking of things like why she[you] wouldn't reply and maybe she is[your're] ignoring me. And maybe she[you] changed I don't know why I thought that, maybe because we used to talk, we used to laugh and lately that hasn't been. So forgive me if I feel depressed like this. Anyway I talked to a friend about it and he told me maybe I'm the one that changed....... and I thought yea maybe it was me then I thought, it was me..... I keep saying we were friends first and we'll always be no matter what but I have been trying to tell her[you] more and maybe she's[you're] not ready for that, maybe she doesn't[you don't] want that, I don't know but I shouldn't keep pushing right? In the end it will always be her[your] decision. I don't need an answer now maybe some other time but whatever it is don't be afraid to be blunt I'd rather it be that way..... So I am sorry if I changed, if I push things, rush things but it's only because when I wasn't sure I was going to stay, I realised I had to tell her[you]. I didn't mean to push [her]you away with my words, I don't want to push her[you] away.... so sorry, really I am. Sorry for embarrassing her[you] countless times with my endless drama here and sorry if I have made her[you] uncomfortabe around me, that's the least thing I want to do.......

To the confidant that told me that maybe it was me.... thank you.... sometimes I lose sight of things that are so easy to see because I just want to see something I want.... no, need. Thank you so much for being patient enough to endure me blabber about my problems I know you have yours too....

Also to my lil sis thank you for everything. How you cheer me up when I am depressed is miraculous. It's amazing what ice cream can do when you're having it while talking to the right person. Sorry for bringing you into this mess I made, making you listen to me and my confused remarks. Thank you.

And to all other people there thank you for everything. I promise to be a little more cheery if there's such a thing for me. So I'm not depressed all the time.

Ciao!