Friday, June 30, 2006

Imagine Me Without You

speechless

music......

music, not tonight all i want is to be at peace...
silence...

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

lea esto, esto es para usted

  • para usted


  • Perdone mi deletreo y la gramática que yo no soy demasiado bueno en esto...
    ignore todo más pero mi descripción...

    Monday, June 26, 2006

    SBC PACKERS (wahahahaha)

    panoorin niyo to nakakatawa....

  • SBC PACKERS


  • pang pinoy ang laugh trip... hehe

    Saturday, June 24, 2006

    I can't sleep...

  • not a day goes by


  • i give my heart


  • i finally found someone


  • just one touch


  • dreaming of you


  • Unrequited love


  • tears put me to sleep at last...

    LOST, conversations with myself...(psycho na ba?)

    ****:
    lutz asan ka na?
    bat nawawala ka?
    san ka ba nagpunta?
    at saan mo balak pumunta?
    Lutz:
    doon sa may ilog
    gusto ko sanang kalimutan na
    hindi ako si lutz
    ako si noel sasama ka pa ba?
    ****:
    hindi ba ikaw si lutz?
    ako si noel
    ano ka ba?
    nasisiraan ka na ba?
    Lutz:
    palagay ko malapit na
    nawawala na nga ako
    hindi ko alam
    kung saan hahanapin ang sarili ko
    Noel:
    paano na ako?
    kung wala ka na?
    hindi ba mawawala rin ako?
    ikaw at ako ay iisang tao
    Lutz:
    ewan ko
    nalalabuan na rin ako
    sana lang magkaliwanagan tayo
    hindi na ako si lutz
    Noel:
    kung hindi na
    sino ako?
    Lutz:
    ikaw?
    sino ka nga ba?
    Noel:
    sabihin mo sa akin yun
    kinuha mo ang lahat sa akin
    Lutz:
    lahat?
    anong lahat?
    Noel:
    lahat ng bagay
    lahat ng masaya
    Lutz:
    pwera sa isa
    sa iyo siya napunta
    Noel:
    ha?
    anong ibig mong sabihin?
    Lutz:
    wala tama na
    wala na akong posisyon pa
    Noel:
    teka saan ka pupunta?
    hindi pa tayo tapos mag...
    Lutz:
    paalam na
    paalam...

    Thursday, June 22, 2006

    sadness is not seeing you smile

    malunkot ako dahil tulala ka
    malunkot dahil hindi ka masaya
    malunkot dahil bihira na lang kitang makasama
    malunkot dahil sa klase na lang kita nakikita

    malunkot dahil hindi tayo nagkakaintindihan
    malunkot dahil hindi kita naabutan
    malunkot dahil yung pagiisip ko wala nang katuturan
    malunkot dahil tahimik ka minsan

    pangako huli na to
    hindi na ako paiiwan
    pangako ko sa akin at sa'yo
    gagawin ko na ang kailangan

    mahal kita
    mahal kita
    paumanhin
    mahal kita

    Tuesday, June 20, 2006

    tears

    tears are important
    they cleanse the soul
    they allow you a release of pain
    they lighten the weight on your shoulders
    and give you time to recover

    but what if you've lost the ability to cry
    then you can't release pain
    you can't cleanse your soul
    you burden yourself with weight
    and you will always have to carry that

    sooner or later you'll break
    you won't be able to take anything
    and you'll be a shell humanity
    you won't be human

    just an empty shell
    nothing more
    until someone teaches you
    you can't forget to cry

    and they teach you what pain is
    and suddenly you can cry again
    and you can live again
    but then you want it to be with them

    .....I'm going to stop now, my head hurts
    Ciao!

    peacock.......

    If you were an animal....

    I answered I wanted to be a peacock, I want to be beautiful...
    But I am not, I am a complex mess of imperfection
    And the little good I strive to find in me, I find with you
    So could anyone find me at fault for falling for you?

    I write these here... because, yes I want to be distant.
    Not because I want to be far from you, God knows how much that would kill me.
    It's because I am afraid to be hurt, specially because I know I could be.
    I am, though I shouldn't be...

    I want things to be so much simpler than they are
    All the things i've said, every single one
    was meant to make things easier not harder
    forgive me if they just complicated things...
    I meant them though every single one...

    About a day ago, I saw you...
    You were so beautiful, it was hard to say anything to you
    and when I finally did... you just passed by, haha LOSER
    so I ended up not saying anything after that
    Later on it was just goodbye...
    ... and another goodnight and sweet dreams

    So its my fault being as stupid as I am
    to keep distant, to not say things personally
    I want to but every chance I get always seems to be messed up
    And its confusing me more and more

    So there, no editing, no censor
    no unidentifiable words or characters that have to be deciphered,
    no puzzles, just plain english that can be understood.
    laugh, go ahead I don't mind.

    I don't want to keep this in riddles
    I don't want to keep playing
    I just want peace of mind, help me....

    Ciao!

    Thursday, June 15, 2006

    orsem......not

    I had gone through the training and setup days for orsem yet surprisingly I did not attend any of the orsem days themselves. Hmmmmmm, guess I felt it wasn't worth it after all. Well thats what you'll come to understand when you don't get into the comm you want when you came so early to reg and then to make things worse you don't know anyone in the new comm you were given. So you end up feeling miserable. But hey that's life, can't blame life for being shitty it just is.

    Now I'm stuck doing nothing but the net, sometimes nothing at all and I end up thinking again (hmmmm maybe orsem wasn't such a bad idea). Nothing I can do though, just let it be. Things like this happen, [I'm not angry just depressed] I want so much for things to be right but it seems I'm stuck with everything that's wrong. I can only do so much but I'll keep on doing it to make things bearable for..... hahaha! (see me smile I aint angry) then again that's just me with a smile painted on my face. wark! I'll just post lyrics to a song I heard in a taxi going home from last saturday's orsem setup and signups. (look I can smile I am not angry, hahaha see the trend here?)

    I'll never go
    by: MYMP
    (but the version I was listening to in
    the taxi was the older one, dunno who sang it though)

    You would always ask me
    Those words i say
    And telling me what it means to me

    Every single day
    You always act this way
    For how many times i told you
    I love you
    For this is all i know

    Come to me and hold me
    And you will see
    The love i give
    For you still hold the key

    Every single day
    You always act this way
    For how many times i told you
    I love you
    For this is all i know

    Chorus:
    I'll never go far away from you
    Even the sky will tell you
    That i need you so
    For this is all i know
    I'll never go far away from you

    Come to me and hold me
    And you will see
    The love i give
    For you still hold the key

    Every single day
    You always act this way
    For how many times i told you
    I love you
    For this is all i know

    Chorus
    I'll never go far away from you
    Even the sky will tell you
    That i need you so
    For this is all i know
    I'll never go far away from you

    Chorus 2x


    p.s.
    Understand yet?
    I'm around for keeps
    Doesn't matter what I am
    If it puts a smile on your face it's enough

    Ciao!