peacock.......

If you were an animal....

I answered I wanted to be a peacock, I want to be beautiful...
But I am not, I am a complex mess of imperfection
And the little good I strive to find in me, I find with you
So could anyone find me at fault for falling for you?

I write these here... because, yes I want to be distant.
Not because I want to be far from you, God knows how much that would kill me.
It's because I am afraid to be hurt, specially because I know I could be.
I am, though I shouldn't be...

I want things to be so much simpler than they are
All the things i've said, every single one
was meant to make things easier not harder
forgive me if they just complicated things...
I meant them though every single one...

About a day ago, I saw you...
You were so beautiful, it was hard to say anything to you
and when I finally did... you just passed by, haha LOSER
so I ended up not saying anything after that
Later on it was just goodbye...
... and another goodnight and sweet dreams

So its my fault being as stupid as I am
to keep distant, to not say things personally
I want to but every chance I get always seems to be messed up
And its confusing me more and more

So there, no editing, no censor
no unidentifiable words or characters that have to be deciphered,
no puzzles, just plain english that can be understood.
laugh, go ahead I don't mind.

I don't want to keep this in riddles
I don't want to keep playing
I just want peace of mind, help me....

Ciao!