All over again

Remember when I said that alcohol doesn't make you say things that are incoherent, it makes you say the things you are afraid to say. Well I am drinking now, and well I have to say this. I love laughing with you and spending time with you, something that lately I have not done much of. I must say I was trying to avoid because I did not know where I stood. Anyway two nights ago you made me think again, laugh and smile, we were having fun pairing someone up and I was happy you were smiling and everything was great. But it made me think, right now I am thinking, that night made me fall in love with you all over again, not that I ever lost love for you. I was soooo happy that night, like a lot of things couldn't possibly matter and those few hours I just wished I could prolong. Sadly, they are just memories now and I can't do anything but hold on to them as I do now. How our friend said LQ, how you hit me at a slight joke I uttered about you or how we walked together as we talked about the lovely pair of m**** and j****. Even when I stayed with you till you got a taxi and went home, I wished time would stop. And when it proceeded all I could do was sigh.

Have I told you what people said to me that night? They said i should have taken you home. That I should have made sure you were safe... they were right and I couldn't answer. The truth is, I wanted to do that, to stay with you just a bit longer because I just fell for you one more time... But I had no right to impose, people know and I am not denying it, I love you and I still do but to do something like that might not have been to your liking. You are a strong girl and you have little need for what I can give but I will so long as I can. Do you understand? I am not up to par with you and I can't help but think that you see me nothing more as a friend. And so I try to stay that way, but when things like that night happen and I fall all over again I don't know what to think anymore. And sometimes I don't want to anymore because I will not know where I stand. But I will always be around for you, I will not offer because I think I have no right to but I will always oblige if you ask me to because I love you and I am confused, I am far from what you are but I love you nonetheless, so I can't possibly impose, shouldn't or am I wrong? I dream that I am wrong but dreams are just dreams still it doesn't change the fact that I fell for you once and all over again and you never even noticed it...

Am I talking non-sense? If I am, then please by all means ignore me.
Ciao! and take care I LOVE YOU...
Time to sleep and hopefull just dream...